I don’t know what the hell to do. It seems like I can’t think about blogging if I’m trying to think about writing, and vice versa. It’s like too radical of a gear change for me to do very often. So at the moment I’m trying to decide which gear I want to shift into– story, or blogging?

To be honest, neither really sounds more appealing than the other. It’s true that I haven’t blogged in a long time, but you can’t really “finish” blogging, and I do have a story sitting around that needs to be finished. Also, there’s no particular topic that I really feel like blogging about, and forcing out a couple of blogturds merely for the sake of updating is not fun for me or for you guys.

So you’d think that this would make the choice to work on my story an easy one, right? Wrong.

Working on it is, more often than not, a chore. Pushing through this haze of uninspiration (is that a word?) and laziness is a pain in the ass. Some days, my characters don’t really communicate with me. Some days, I’ll sit down to write and my mind takes a sharp left turn toward something else, like giant robots. It’s also really difficult to keep bulling through chapters that I don’t like in order to get to the good stuff. But I know I’ve got to do it. I’ve got to get a first draft completed from beginning to end before I can go back and start editing out chapters or condensing them or improving them. This is my new mantra: Write now; edit later. But it sure ain’t easy.

I guess I said all that to say this: It’ll be a while before I get around to updating regularly again. 😦 But I certainly haven’t forgotten about it. Quite the contrary.